Okay, sorry about that. It's just school starts tomorrow and I don't know how to feel about it! So many conflicting emotions, people!
I mean, let's be honest, on the one hand, I'm super duper stoked to go back to school. I've been sitting at home recovering from surgery, so I'm ready to get back out there, do things, and meet new people. I am also a nerd and I am slightly excited (just slightly....okay, really excited!) about all of my medical classes I have lined up for this semester.
HOWEVER. On the other hand, I am freaking out about another school year! School means awkward encounters while trying to make new friends, homework and hours of studying with no social life, and let's face it, comparing yourself to every other girl on campus. Face it, girls, it's what we do, and I KNOW I do it! I look at all the other girls every day and think, "Wow, she's gorgeous. I look like a potato." Or, "Well, she certainly pulls off the exact outfit I have hanging in my closet much better than I ever could. I mean, she has boobs and long legs and nice hair and that dress looks amazing on her! Yup, that one's going to charity as soon as I get home. No way I can ever compare to Barbie over here."
Oh, and I ALWAYS worry about making new friends at the beginning of the school year. I mean, you show up to class and it's like, "Oh gosh, I feel so awkward, I don't know anyone. This is going to be just like lunch in middle school where I had to sit all alone by the trash cans! And I can't......I just can't even......how to.....socialize....?" Yup. Been there, done that, my friends.
It's fine. I understand all about the mixed emotions when faced with a new school year-the jitters, the excitement, the hesitation-but let's be honest, college is a WHOLE lot better than high school in that regard. There's still insecurities and doubts, but once you're in college, you just do your own thing. You do whatever stirs your chili, floats your boat, blows your bubbles. College is all about finding yourself, and as long as I can keep that in mind, and not focus TOO much on the girl in my English class who has the exact same sweater on as me and looks like a flipping model, then I'll be just fine this school year.
Besides, who wants to be a model in a dress or sweater when I can rock scrubs like no one else?
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